Doha 58
हृदयँ सोचु समुझत निज करनी। चिंता अमित जाइ नहिं बरनी॥ कृपासिंधु सिव परम अगाधा। प्रगट न कहेउ मोर अपराधा॥१॥
संकर रुख अवलोकि भवानी। प्रभु मोहि तजेउ हृदयँ अकुलानी॥ निज अघ समुझि न कछु कहि जाई। तपइ अवाँ इव उर अधिकाई॥२॥
सतिहि ससोच जानि बृषकेतू। कहीं कथा सुंदर सुखहेतू॥ बरनत पंथ बिबिध इतिहासा। बिस्वनाथ पहुँचे कैलासा॥३॥
तहँ पुनि संभु समुझि पन आपन। बैठे बटतर करि कमलासन॥ संकर सहज सरूपु सम्हारा। लागि समाधि अखंड अपारा॥४॥
Meaning
Satī felt perturbed in Her heart at the thought of what She had done; the extent of Her anxiety could neither be gauged nor described. She realized that Lord Śiva is a supremely unfathomable ocean of mercy, hence He did not openly declare Her fault. (1) From the stance of Śiva, however, She judged that the Lord had abandoned Her, and felt great agony in Her heart. Conscious of Her guilt, She could not say anything; but all the while Her heart smouldered like a furnace. (2) Perceiving the sad look of Satī, Śiva narrated beautiful episodes in order to relieve Her mind. Relating various legends while on His way, the Lord of the universe, Śiva, reached Kailāsa. (3) Then, recalling His vow, Śiva sat down there under a banyan tree in the Yogic pose known as ‘Padmāsana’ (the lotus pose). Lord Śiva communed with His own Self and passed into an unbroken and indefinitely long Samādhi (trance). (4)
सती बसहिं कैलास तब अधिक सोचु मन माहिं। मरमु न कोऊ जान कछु जुग सम दिवस सिराहिं॥५८॥
Meaning
Then Satī dwelt in Kailāsa, Her mind sorrowing grievously. Nobody knew anything about what was going on in Her mind; but the days hung heavy on Her like so many Yugas or ages. (58)
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