Doha 105b
गयउँ उजेनी सुनु उरगारी । दीन मलीन दरिद्र दुखारी ॥ गएँ काल कछु संपति पाई । तहँ पुनि करउँ संभु सेवकाई ॥ १ ॥
बिप्र एक बैदिक सिव पूजा । करइ सदा तेहि काजु न दूजा ॥ परम साधु परमारथ बिंदक । संभु उपासक नहिं हरि निंदक ॥ २ ॥
तेहि सेवउँ मैं कपट समेता । द्विज दयाल अति नीति निकेता ॥ बाहिज नम्र देखि मोहि साईं । बिप्र पढ़ाव पुत्र की नाईं ॥ ३ ॥
संभु मंत्र मोहि द्विजबर दीन्हा। सुभ उपदेस बिबिध बिधि कीन्हा॥ जपउँ मंत्र सिव मंदिर जाई। हृदयँ दंभ अहमिति अधिकाई॥४॥
Meaning
“Listen, O enemy of serpents, Garuḍa, I went to Ujjain—miserable, downcast, penniless and afflicted. When sometime had elapsed, I acquired some wealth and after that I began worshipping Lord Śaṅkara at that very place. (1) “There was a Brāhmaṇa there who constantly worshipped Lord Śiva according to the Vedic rites and had no other task at hand. He was an extremely pious soul and a knower of the highest truth, a votary of Lord Śambhu, but no reviler of Śrī Hari. (2) “I served him though with a guileful heart. The Brāhmaṇa was very kind-hearted and an abode of piety. Seeing me outwardly so humble, my Lord, the Brāhmaṇa taught me as his own son. (3) “The great Brāhmaṇa imparted to me a mystic formula (मंत्र) sacred to Lord Śiva and gave me all kinds of salutary advice. I used to go to the temple of Lord Śiva and repeat the sacred formula there with unbounded ostentation and conceit in my heart. (4)
मैं खल मल संकुल मति नीच जाति बस मोह। हरि जन द्विज देखें जरउँ करउँ बिष्नु कर द्रोह॥१०५ (क)॥
गुर नित मोहि प्रबोध दुखित देखि आचरन मम। मोहि उपजइ अति क्रोध दंभिहि नीति कि भावई॥१०५ (ख)॥
Meaning
“A wretch of impure mind, low-born and overcome by infatuation, I was filled with jealousy at the very sight of devotees of Śrī Hari or Brāhmaṇas and hated Lord Viṣṇu. (105 A) “Distressed to see my conduct, my preceptor would admonish me time and again; but on hearing his admonition, I burnt with rage. Can sober counsel appeal to a hypocrite?(105B)
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