Doha 261
बिधि न सकेउ सहि मोर दुलारा। नीच बीचु जननी मिस पारा॥ यहउ कहत मोहि आजु न सोभा। अपनीं समुझि साधु सुचि को भा॥१॥
मातु मंदि मैं साधु सुचाली। उर अस आनत कोटि कुचाली॥ फरइ कि कोदव बालि सुसाली। मुकता प्रसव कि संबुक काली॥२॥
सपनेहुँ दोसक लेसु न काहू। मोर अभाग उदधि अवगाहू॥ बिनु समुझें निज अघ परिपाकू। जारिउँ जायँ जननि कहि काकू॥३॥
हृदयँ हेरि हारेउँ सब ओरा। एकहि भाँति भलेहिं भल मोरा॥ गुर गोसाइँ साहिब सिय रामू। लागत मोहि नीक परिनामू॥४॥
Meaning
“But Providence could not bear to see me treated with fondness. In the disguise of my vile mother it created a cleft between us (myself and my Lord). It does not behove me today to say even this; for who has come to be recognized as good and pious on the basis of his own estimation? (1) “To entertain the thought that my mother is wicked while I am virtuous and upright in itself tantamounts to a million evils. Can an ear of the Kodo* plant yield good rice and can a dark bivalve shell produce a pearl? (2) * The Kodo (Saṁskṛta Kodrava) is a kind of corn grown in the eastern parts of U. P. It bears a small grain of inferior quality, eaten by the poor. “Not a tinge of blame attaches to anyone even in a dream; my own ill-luck is unfathomable like the ocean. In vain did I torment my mother by abusing her without estimating the consequences of my own sins. (3) “I have mentally surveyed all possible avenues but feel frustrated. There is only one hope of my salvation: Your Holiness is my preceptor while Sītā and Śrī Rāma are my masters. From this I presume that all will be well in the end. (4)
साधु सभाँ गुर प्रभु निकट कहउँ सुथल सतिभाउ। प्रेम प्रपंचु कि झूठ फुर जानहिं मुनि रघुराउ॥२६१॥
Meaning
“In this concourse of holy men, in the presence of my preceptor and master and in this holy place I speak in good faith. Whether there is any love in my heart or it is all simulation and whether what I say is true or false is known to the all-knowing sage as well as to Śrī Raghunātha (the knower of one’s inner feelings). (261)
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